Just me

So I had to spend my very first holiday without my kids this week. It was tough. Thanks to my work schedule they went to Arizona and I had to stay here. It hasn't been easy. I have moped around, watched the same movie like four times, pretty much have had a shity time. I want them back. I want them here. I can hear kids going down the road and laughing and see them with their families as I drive by, and it SUCKS!! I want my girls. I want them now. I don't want to be here and have them there. Even if they were here I would be working at night but atleast I wouldn't feel so far away from them. I could spend some time with them.