Christmas joy

Well we are ready for Christmas!! All presents wrapped, stockings stuffed. and milk and cookies left for Santa! YAY!!! It was interesting getting to this point. Yesterday, my mom's birthday, started with a call to poison control. EXCELLENT!! Adriana somehow got ahold of and opened a brand new bottle of Concentrated Motrin drops. Awesome! Might I add that it was in the 5 minutes I was in using the bathroom. That was a great start. But she was fine, wound tighter than an eight day clock, but fine. Got through that day fine after that. Then got up this morning, made a gingerbread house with Maria. That was fun! Two babies, Kynndra, Maria, and Me. It's like the special bus rejected us and dumped us all in the same spot!! But it turned out nice. Then went to Mom's, "What? You don't remember me telling you about dinner at Aunt Annie's" Well it was in an hour! Nice job Shannon!! Okay through that. Got back to Gramma's and she gives the girls what? Fart putty!! Thank you so much!! The rest of the evening was filled with, not christmas songs, no, fart noises and giggles!! "It wasn't me, it was the putty!!" Then home, set up for Santa, Mom called and told me about NORAD. We can track Sabta! Kynndra thought this was So cool. She kept an eye on it while I got Adi in bed. When I got back she asked me how Santa could move if he didn't have a sleigh? I told her that was just a picture not the real Santa. She was ok with that. Got the girls in bed, blah, blah, blah. Yay, I get to chow down! I got to the bottom of the milk, OH MY GOD!! What is in the bottom of the glass!?! A brown, blob! I gagged!! Almost lost it, then relized Adriana had added her special touch before going to bed, A piece of chocolate!! Guess it was choclate milk for santa!! GROSS!! Ok so now put stuff together. I did mention I fell off the special bus right??? Why does using tools make me seem so retarded? I know how to do this stuff, why does it take so long, and fight me so bad? WTF?? Anyway, so now it's done and we're just waiting on Santa to drop off presents!! WOW Christmas is hard!!

Quality time

I spent last weekend in Boise and then came home and my girls had to go to Arizona for a wedding, so I didn't get to see my girls for a while. I have to say that I missed them like crazy. Now that they are finally home and I am not on night shifts I have appreciated our time more than ever before. I have cherished every moment. It's almost like it means more now. Missing them that much makes it worth so much more to be with them. We have done so much the last two days together. We went out to dinner, we have colored, read stories, watched movies, cooked meals together, everything is so perfect. I absolutely LOVE my life, my girls, and just everything right now. I couldn't be any happier than I am right now.

Just me

So I had to spend my very first holiday without my kids this week. It was tough. Thanks to my work schedule they went to Arizona and I had to stay here. It hasn't been easy. I have moped around, watched the same movie like four times, pretty much have had a shity time. I want them back. I want them here. I can hear kids going down the road and laughing and see them with their families as I drive by, and it SUCKS!! I want my girls. I want them now. I don't want to be here and have them there. Even if they were here I would be working at night but atleast I wouldn't feel so far away from them. I could spend some time with them.

Whatd' ya do?

What do you do when you realize you have become the person you said you would never be? That person that you sat and whispered to your friends about behind their backs. How does it happen. Like out of nowhere, and without you even knowing that it happened. Like one morning you woke up and almost over night you changed into someone you don't even recognize anymore. On top of that, how do you get back to the person you used to be? If you don't know you changed, how do you know when you will change back? Maybe this is who I am and just never realized it. Was I that nieve? I'm not really hurt by it or all that upset honestly. I've been through alot in my 24 years and maybe this is my rebellious phase I never had because I had kids and married young. Kind of an odd time to do it I think but hey, take things as they come. What I do hate about it is that this isn't really the kind of towm where you can even breath wrong in without EVERYONE knowing it. Hell, I've done things I don't even know about. Which is odd because I don't remember EVER being THAT drunk... Well that's my rant of pouring my heart out to the public again. Another part of me that just makes me, me.

Only you know why....

The lotus flower starts as a small flower down at the bottom of a pond in the mud and muck. It slowly grows up towards the waters surface continually moving towards the light. Once it come to the surface of the water the lotus flower begins to blossom and turn into a beautiful flower.
Within Hinduism and Buddhism the lotus flower has become a symbol for awakening to the spiritual reality of life.

Made it through alive.

They finally got our heat fixed!! We all made it out alive. No fatalities due to freezing. My butt only stuck to the toilet seat like for times, and the snot running out of nose finally turned into snot sicles so that was much better (Gross I know). So when I left this afternoon the building was starting to warm and the icicles were melting away into they're little puddles! Yeah!! I hope it's still working when I get in tomorrow!! I'll still dress warm. I should mention that when I left the house this morning I was wearing my pajama pants and jeans, then a tank top, tee shirt, and sweater and my coat, then when I got to work where I couldn't wear my coat I topped all this off with my scrubs!! I took one of my beanies just incase!! It was actually colder inside, than outside!

Still no heat

So I get to work this morning and there is still no heat in this building. It's 20 degrees in the receiving room and pretty much everywhere else. I can't feel my fingers, let alone any other part of my body. The restroom is so cold it freezes on the way out. If you know what I mean. They are still working on it though. They did get heat in the high grade room. That's where I am usually at, but not today. Sure wouldn't mind being in there today!! But hey you just have to grin and bear it.

100 things you may not know about me

I was given this challenge by my Mom. Let's see how I fair.

1. I hate being alone. Even for like just a few minutes. I don't really enjoy alone time when I get it. That's why I don't spend much time at home.
2. I don't like to talk on the phone. I prefer a face to face conversation. Then I can actually see the person's reactions.
3. I LOVE to cook. I wanted to go to Culinary school, and own my own restaraunt.
4. I am very insecure about myself. Over everything, looks, choices, work, everything!!
5. I like to sleep but not at night.
6. I like dragons.
7. I love Asian inspired art and decor.
8. My favorite color is black.
9. I always wanted a really big family.
10. I like to cuddle. I could lay on the couch all day snuggled up to someone, it would be just fine with me.
11. I would love to move back to Arizona more than anything. (Well almost)
12. I like to buy shoes, but not wear shoes.
13. I could shop all day and not buy anything. I love to look at stuff.
14. I like to eat popcicles.
15. I still like to watch Disney movies and the Disney channel. I'm 24.
16. I like my job but not the atmosphere in it.
17. I always have the TV on, but don't always watch it. I just like having the noise.
18. I could live without a cell phone. Sometimes it would be nice to not have people always be able to get ahold of me.
19. I like hoodies.
20. I'm an obsesive compulsive sock buyer.
21. I don't like chocolate.
22. My favorite thing about myself is my eyes, even if they have been nothing but trouble my whole life.
23. I used to sing at Cowboy poetry roundups. That's right, old timey music, and I loved it!! That was the most fun I ever had singing.
24. I tried out for American Idol. And choked.
25. I would like to adopt a kid. Just the feeling that I helped out someone who needed me, it would be the greatest feeling in the world.
26. I would love to have a spotless house all the time, but don't want to be the one to keep it that way.
27. I like humming birds.
28. I stronglybelieve in Karma.
29. I believe in love at first sight.
30. I'm not religous but more spiritual.
31. Everything DOES happen for a reason.
32. I find beauty in chaos.
33. My favorite celebrity ever is Marilyn Monroe.
34. I fall asleep watching movies.
35. Tequila makes me vomit no matter what it is mixed with.
36. I can't drink milk if someone else took a drink out of the glass.
37. I like to wear dresses but feel out of place when I do.
38. I love tattoos.
39. I would love to have a Harley.
40. Things aren't always what they seem.
41. I would love to travel to new places.
42. I want to learn to speak Irish.
43. Nothing beats a good book and a glass of good wine.
44. I lose my wallet more than any person EVER!!
45. Look a squirrel!! I get distracted easily.
46. I was really good at English.
47. I like to wear makeup.
48. I HATE Spaghetti O's. YUCK!!
49. Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday.
50. I truely believe that my kids are the greatest thing I have ever done. Hands down the best thing in my entire life! Nothing I do will ever top them.
51. I cuss WAY too much.
52. I love the rain.
53. I still like to color.
54. I like to take pictures.
55. I wish I could draw.
56. I wish I could paint.
57. I like it when I really am right about something. Duh!!
58. I like to ride at the dunes and wish I had a fourwheeler so I could do it more often.
59. I have a cruch on Dennis Leary. I know right??
60. I like breakfast for dinner, and dinner for breakfast.
61. I hate people that think telling you what you want to hear will get them closer to you. Just be honest. It ends up leaving you with less problems later in life.
62. My heart is easily broken.
63. I fall quickly
64. I remember ecerything that I feel was wonderful
65. I'm addicted to Myspace.
66. I'm way to loud!
67. My kids are spoiled.
68. I bought my mom a dog just cause.
69. I wish I had more friends.
70. I hate wearing a bra. Hey you wanted to know about me and I'm running out of ideas here.
71. Not only do I lose my wallet a lot, I have had to replace my debit card more than anyone I know.
72. My favorite food ever is Mashed Potatoes and gravy.
73. Baseball is my favorite sport.
74. I'm glutten for punishment.
75. I have more clothes than anybody should ever have.
76. I'm shy, until I get to know you, then you better look out.
77. I would totally be a Playboy bunny! They're hot!!
78. My butt is numb from sitting here trying to finish this thing.
79. I can remember every dream I have.
80. I love to give people stuff just for funsies
81. I make up words.
82. I don't like sleeping alone.
83. Infact, I sleep on the couch so I have the noise from the TV to keep me company.
84. My couch is SO uncomfortable.
85. I still sleep there.
86. I hate folding laundry.
87. I really am a dork, but that's who I am and if you don't like it tough.
88. My hair is never the same color, style, anything for longer than a month.
89. Whiskey for my men, beer for my horses.
90. There are a lot of things that I wish I could take back.
91. I'm getting a new tattoo on Friday.
92. I would like to say I have no regrets but I think everyone has a few.
93. I want to be truely happy with myself.
94. I am horrible at drunk texting.
95. I like to dance with the girls.
96. I would like to have just enough money to pay off all my bills. Then I would be pleased.
97. I am the first person to tell on myself when I do something wrong.
98. I like to play pool
99. When I grow up I want a house on the beach.
100. I have such an eventful life that I actually had the time to sit here and do this all in one sitting!!

There you go Mom and it only took me an hour and a little bit.


....Okay Mom said I cheated on a couple of them so here are a few extras.

101. I like to bake just so the house smells good.
102. When I had my eye surgery, I made my mom take me to Wal-Mart to get nail polish first because my toes weren't painted and I would have been mortified for anyone to see them that way.
103. I like to vaccuum. Weird huh?
104. My belly button is pierced
105. My ears are pierced 6 times each.
106. I collect swords
107. I like the Discovery Channel.
108. I can't pluck my own eyebrows. Which reminds me MOM I need you to do me a favor...
109. I'm scared of geese. They freak me out so bad!
Okay I think that's better.

Too much coffee makes you lazy...

I have noticed that on the weekends my intake of coffee increases by atleast 80% from during the week when I'm at work. I've also noticed that I am motivated at work, and not at home. I think there is a connection here. At home when I drink the increased ampunt of coffee I will sit here at the computer and play all day. I will do nothing constructive and don't even want to think about the idea of doing anything but relaxing and enjoying days off. Less coffee, more work. I am determined to do everything I can and am even stricken to do extra just because I feel like it. Pure coincidence or scientific theory proven. Now some might not see it this way but I definately think this could be the answer to my weekend rests. See too much coffee makes you lazy!! I'm sure of it!

Oh the weather outside is....

Crappy, sucky, shitty, snowing and cold. I hate the snow. I'm sorry, when I was a kid it was fun. Yay snow angels, and snowmen, and sleding!! But now, cold and slick driving, ice and sliding. YUCK!! This shit is bad. Why can't I live in the Bahamas where it's warm and I can sit on a beach with a Pina Colada and a cabana boy named Rico to fan me with a giant palm leaf like they show in the movies. Yeah that sounds like the perfect winter to me!! One day I will have it! Muahahaha!!

Freezing...

I had a lousy day at work. I get there yesterday morniing and there are NO heaters!! None what so ever! NOTHING!!! It was awful. It was colder inside than it was outside. I called mantenance and they said sorry don't know what to tell you, we're waiting on parts. Now I thought to myself you're waiting on parts for ALL the weatherights!?!? What the hell. They can't all be broken. As I sat in my office, looking at my breath, I decided to talk to the boss about it. Suddenly when he called the story changed. They didn't know that they were ALL down, they just thought it was the one. They would be right over to see what's up. They did come over, but needless to say when I left work, there were still icicles hanging in the lab.

Glad to help

Last night I was sitting at home watching a movie with a friend when I get a text message from my friend Kristy. If you knew the history between me and Kristy you would kind of laugh in amazement at how far we have come. She has been sick since like Thursday but we all just figured she had the flu and it was hanging on. So the text says " Hey I am throwing up blood, what do you think that means?" I'm totally shocked at how non shallant she was about the whole thing. So I immediately call her and tell her she needs to go to the hospital now. She said "well it has only happened twice" I'm just shocked. I understand that she didn't want to go because the hospital around here is really not all that great. It takes them forever to do anything! So I said I would call them and see what they say then call her back. After tracking down the number I called and they said she needed to come in. Now on top of the throwing up she had a migraine from hell that would not go away. So I called her back and told her what they said. She said "okay well I will drive myself in. My mom has to work tomorrow, and Ric can't leave work" HELLO!!!! I said no you aren't, give me a few minutes and I will take you in. I went to my mom's to pick up the baby because she wasn't sleeping yet, (I forgot to mention it is 10:30 at night) and explained things to her. She said the baby was fine there and for me to just go. So off we went. We got to the Tonapah hospital and the journey began. They gave her a shot to keep from throwing up, and one for the headache, (which we told them wasn't going to work). Then the wait for the radiologist, X-ray's then an hour's wait while the contrast stuff she had to drink made it through her system. A CT scan, then more waiting. The images were sent three times before the people that looked at them finally got them, it took two hours. YAY they got the results back, now the wait for the doc to get there and a shot of Morphine to get rid of the headache. ( This one took the edge off finally) Doc says she has a bacterial infection in her small intestine, antibiotics to get rid of that, now another CT scan of her head to see why her migraine has been there for a week and won't go away. Wait for the radiologist again, then wait for the place they send the results to again. It is now almost 5:00 am. As we figured, because she has had a CT scan on her head recently for her headaches, when the results came in everything was fine, now we had to wait for doc to come in and give us discharge instructions. He gets there, goes over everything. Since her headache and nausea are not 100% gone, she gets one more shot for vomiting, a shot of Demerol and a shot of Valium for the road. We get antibiotics for the road and we are finally out of there. Now if I hadn't mentioned. I have been awake since like 6:30 the previous morning with not even a nap! It is now 6:30 the NEXT morning, and surprisingly I'm feeling fine! We make it home about 7:30 and I head home to see my kids who are already awake and ready for they're new day. Now I know this sounds like a hell of a journey, but you have no idea how good it feels to have a friend that calls YOU when they need something because they trust you that much. I feel very loved. She knew that when in need I would be there for her no matter what. I feel so good about myself that I was able to help her out when she needed someone! Oh, and Sam, sorry our movie got interrupted and you had to spend the night waiting for me to get back. I'll make it up to you I swear!!

I should be cleaning

I have this bad habit of not doing things I should be doing. I have had four days off and haven't done shit! My house is so cluttered that it is driving me insane but I have made an excuse everyday so that I don't have to do anything in it. How horrible is that? Today I have made a point to do something. I am determined!

I messed up her M&M's....

Me and Mom made a trip into Fallon yesterday because I wanted to go in and pay off my Jeep. YAY IT'S MINE!! I had asked Mom to come with me because everywhere around this area takes atleast 3 hours to get to, so I wanted the company. Of course she obliged, ROAD TRIP!! After taking care of business, we stopped and did a little antiqueing, didn't find anything we couldn't live without, we ran to Wal-mart to pick up a few things for the girls. We ran to the hardware store, then to Payless to get Kynndra some new boots. Then we were out of there! A quick stop to fuel up and grab soda and snacks for the ride home and we could hit the road. While I filled up Mom ran in and got drinks and some Peanut M &M's. Excellent!! Now my mom has this little quirk where she has to seperate the colors before she eats them. They can not touch once in the respective groups and she eats them by how many are in each group and has to be a certain way. I don't know, it's just one of those things that makes her her and why we love her. So she has her M&M's all arranged on my dashboard, not touching, in the groups, I don't know how she did it but she did. As I looked over at her the little devil on my shoulder popped up. I grinned at her and started giggling. She asked me what? I said nothing, nothing at all. She said "No you have to share, you can't giggle and then not share." The devil popped up, "Do it, do it, show her why your laughing." So on the brake pedal I so gently pushed, M&M's went EVERYWHERE!! out of their carefully sorted groups, all touching, and back into the center of the dashboard. NO!! Mom quickly started resorting all the M&M's back into the groups and back into place. I couldn't help it, I had to do it again because it was so funny the first time it would be even better the second! NOT FUNNY!! says Mom. I crack myself up!! I thought it was very amusing. Bet she doesn't sort M&M's on my dash again!!

Inspirations

Before marriage, a girl has to make love to a man to hold him. After marriage, she has to hold him to make love to him.

It's woman's spirit and mood a man has to stimulate in order to make sex interesting. The real lover is the man who can thrill you by touching your head or smiling into your eyes or just staring into space.

Men who think that a woman's past love affairs lessen her love for them are usually stupid and weak. A woman can bring a new love to each man she loves, providing there are not too many.

I'm very definitely a woman and I enjoy it.

I don't mind living in a man's world as long as I can be a woman in it.

I don't want to make money. I just want to be wonderful.

I love to do the things the censors won't pass.

A career is wonderful thing, but you can't snuggle up to it on a cold night.

It's better to be unhappy alone than unhappy with someone.

A career is born in public -- talent in privacy.

Hollywood is a place where they'll pay you a thousand dollars for a kiss and fifty cents for your soul.

The body is meant to be seen, not all covered up.

Sex is part of nature. I go along with nature.

If I play a stupid girl and ask a stupid question I've got to follow it through. What am I supposed to do - look intelligent?

What did she say??

My oldest daughter started first grade a couple weeks ago. Unlike many other places the kindergarten here is still only half a day. So needless to say she was not used to the all day class schedule. Despite my best efforts the bed time I set for the first day of school was not enough sleep. She came home exhausted. She was nodding off on the couch, and as bad as I felt for keeping her awake, I didn't want her to sleep before dinner time. We were at her father's house and Maria told her to go out and play or something dinner would be done in a few minutes. So out to ride her bike it was. A few minutes later Maria stepped outside for a "breather" and Kynndra was parking her bike. Maria told her she didn't have to park her bike, dinner wasn't done just yet. Kynndra told Maria she couldn't ride anymore. Maria asked why. And what else would come out of my little angel's mouth but, "I can't because I'm just to F-ing tired" Now I must make it clear that she did not say the actual word!! She did infact say EFFING!! Holding back laughter she was told that even though that was not a bad word, that adults use it to replace a bad word and she probably shouldn't say it. She was okay with that and went on into the house.

She called him "Old Guy"

I am a Daddy's girl. There's not much more to say about it. I think that there will never be anyone in the world like my Dad. For many years I have affectionately reffered to my father as "Old Guy." It is a nickname that's origin is a mystery to me now, but I'm sure there was some humorous moment in time that brought about it's beginning. As my baby is getting bigger and bigger her vocabulary is quickly brodening. As is her personality! My dad was standing in the kitchen this evening getting some bologna out of the refrigerator. Here comes my little fire ball running in behind him. She looks up at him and says affectionately, "What you doing Old Guy?" Dad looked down at her and told her without missing a beat " I'm getting bologna and don't call me old guy!!" Needless to say there was much laughter throughout the whole house, especially from me when I relized he just said the same thing to his youngest granddaughter, that he has said for many years to his youngest daughter. Funny the way things work.